Fed Up.

Today's mood is fed the fuck up. I know the majority of my posts are ranty, but by the time I find any time to write a post, I'm ranty. I don't get people. I don't mean that all people are stupid and therefore, me being smart, can't comprehend the sheer amounts of stupidity certain people give off. I mean I don't get people. And here is why: I'm an individual. I'm not better except in my own mind, quite understanding a bit of information coming from a sometimes narcissist, aint it? Okay, so in a few ways I might be better, but in a few ways others are better than me. If you count on that kinda ridiculous scale anyway. It depends on the person, but I'd like to think that there are just some basic, common sense things that people as a society should freakin' be, like understanding and introspective with the mental capacity to view the world through more than a narrow ass scope that shows them at the damn end.

Intermission: I am aware of my horrible run on and incomplete sentences in this post.

Why is it that people want to be the damn victims of society all the time? "No one understands me!", "No one accepts me!"...blah blah blah. I'd be more understanding and sympathetic to this, since everyone thinks that from time to time including me, if it didn't come out of the mouth's of people that can't accept ME for who I am, or someone else for who they are. Thinking you are entitled to anything just because you are you is damn arrogant and immature. Everyone catches shit, everyone gets judged, and yes, everyone judges everyone. I am so sorry you have to work at something and earn it. The day you are so privy as not to have these problems everyone better be privy. You want to be the victim? Then do it the all the way, don't do any of this shit to anyone else. Do you know how much shit I catch from people about how I should give them special treatment, do for them something I don't do for even my closest friends, or maybe how much flack I get for the hair dying or the piercings, and the fact I am not a lover of the phone or typing out long ass messages in a window because I would rather look at a person? Or maybe even how I think in general. Yeah, that has been a wonderful topic of conversation I love to have. Just because I choose not to have certain people in my life after they have hurt or broken my trust, doesn't mean I am a tough, mean, or a massively jaded person, it means I'm not a door matt and that I don't think it's worth the trouble. I am sorry that I keep a select amount of close as hell friends that may not include certain people. But guess what, having a shit ton of friends just means you know a lot of people because it is impossible to really love a large quantity of individuals. I know who my friends are. I know the people I can call up or message and they wont judge me. I think that's what's really important. Knowing the people that wont look at you differently when they find out some of your less flattering features, people that don't want to save you or make you think differently because they think their way of thinking is far better. People that accept it's who you are, and whether they like it or not they don't treat you like crap based on it. Real love and friendship, I think, is the people in your life that see you, all of you, that don't excuse the least desired parts but know them and accept them, that don't view them as bad parts but just parts of you that make you who you are.

Life And The Song.

"Sure, it's good to feel things, and if it hurts, we're doing it to ourselves, or so the saying goes, but there should be a different music here. There should be just one safe place in the world, I mean this world. People get hurt here. People fall down and stay down and I don't like the way the song goes."

Richard Siken